Hard to understand

I got tired
of trying to find the loophole,
the point where my faith should hold,
the excuse to keep on.

I got tired
of prioritizing what's not important,
of justifying the flaws, the mistakes,
the lack of details.

I cannot find an explanation
to the unforgivable,
to the unforgetable,
to the regretable.

I just can't.
Not anymore.